My dear friend! It’s ok to sink in the shadows. It’s not ok to unpack and settle down forever. Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.
Have you lost interest in life? Do you find yourself unable to enjoy things that gave you pleasure earlier? Have your energy levels dipped? Has this been happening for a long time now? It is probably an indicator of depression and I feel your pain. Perhaps it is some sorrow that has brought it on. Perhaps it is some guilt. You may also realise that you need to act, but can’t.
When I was dealing with my wife’s mental health issues, I went through most of these symptoms. So believe me, I know what you are going through.
The pain is real, my friend. But also remember, there is light at the end of the tunnel. Always. You just need to learn to see it. With different eyes. Sometimes when you are in a dark place, you think you have been buried. But actually, you have just been planted.
Every wound will heal. Every pain will subside. And it can be done. Apart from millions of others, I am a living example myself. And I know what needs to be done, and how. You just need to want to emerge.